Parkinson's disease is a slow violation of your life; an inexplicable, unstoppable, defining yet indefinite disintegration of everything you have built in your life. The suffering comes from the awareness of the violation and the lack of power to intervene. It comes from the burden of "should have done more in the past" and what I can't do now and in the future. It is knowing when the violation is over there will be nothing left of me. A life in ruins.
Yet I can admire a ruined building
and what a life leaves behind. That is my aim now: to live a life in the
present to the best of my ability and ensure through the process of living
something of me remains.